Confused

Right now, thinking about my future seems to be so close, now that I'm in college. A lot of things have been messing me up, and i don't really know what to do. I thought college was going to be a new slate, but it seems old habits die hard. Liking someone's really easy to do, exhibit a:me, I think there are times that I have a crush on someone I see from far away, not even knowing the person.

Let me just say, as a pessimist, I think that liking or loving someone at a young age (especially when you're still in school) really sucks. It messes you up. You won't be able to think straight, you suddenly think that he/she means the world to you, and, once you're hurt, it's like you're falling down a black hole of despair.

I actually haven't fallen in love with someone yet, but who knows it could happen tomorrow, the next day, the day after that, or sometime within the night.

Hahahaha, there's a lyric from a band called the Police it goes like this "Young teacher the subject of schoolgirl fantasy" I guess you can guess where I'm at.