Grade Consultation Day

The storm has passed, thank the Lord, and I passed all of my subjects this term! And what made the day better? Getting to be a Dean's Lister (DL), that's what!

My Grade Point Average (GPA) wasn't bad. The only thing that made me sad that I was so close to a 3.400GPA to become a 1st Honor DL Student, not that being a 2nd Honor DL Student is bad (I really should be thankful, and I am) but you know when you think you were so close to the goal, and you missed out by that much (and by that much it was 0.1 much, ikr?)

I tried to convince my teachers, but in the end I failed to do so. I guess it was one of those moments when you have to understand their part too, it's really a hassle to change our grades to get a new grade, but then again...

Okay there's this other thing that's been bothering me for a while:

When I like a guy, I usually get over him after knowing that I won't be seeing that person again. And After I get over him I do the following: write a letter that gave me a reason why I like him, fold the letter, burn it, watch it burn, and dispose of the ashes of the letter I poured my heart out in writing.

What happened was, I did all of these things and I still couldn't get over him. It's weird that I've seen him in my dreams thrice now, but it sort of makes me smile a bit.

What's worse is, now, I don't know why I like that person anymore. I just plainly like him, simple as that, is that at all weird? what does it mean?

Well, I better log off. I have to go to the hospital for a check-up tomorrow.

Confused

Right now, thinking about my future seems to be so close, now that I'm in college. A lot of things have been messing me up, and i don't really know what to do. I thought college was going to be a new slate, but it seems old habits die hard. Liking someone's really easy to do, exhibit a:me, I think there are times that I have a crush on someone I see from far away, not even knowing the person.

Let me just say, as a pessimist, I think that liking or loving someone at a young age (especially when you're still in school) really sucks. It messes you up. You won't be able to think straight, you suddenly think that he/she means the world to you, and, once you're hurt, it's like you're falling down a black hole of despair.

I actually haven't fallen in love with someone yet, but who knows it could happen tomorrow, the next day, the day after that, or sometime within the night.

Hahahaha, there's a lyric from a band called the Police it goes like this "Young teacher the subject of schoolgirl fantasy" I guess you can guess where I'm at.

My June so fun!

Yesterday, marked the first day of a new month, which is July.
To sum it up, it was really alright. DLSU celebrated it's centennial year on June 16 with my Blockmates (Block 13-Legal Management) We were all wearing green and danced to
the song Live it Up by the LaSalle Innersoul! It's really nice! :)

Let's see, I'd say the highlight of the month of June for me was the David Choi Concert! ♥ I totally fell inlove with him and his voice, I am a fan, but after that concert consider me an ultra mega fan (even if my friends knows all the songs and sang to every single song that he sang in the concert, and I was next to her...hmm...) I got to take a picture with David, but all that star-struck moments aside, I was really happy since I got to meet 2 out of 4 of my girlies again, namely, Kata and Tricia! and my bro Pio was there too. We really have to hang out again next time guys!

It's been a while since I've posted an entry here, but I'll try to keep on writing about my month, well even if no one's reading it.

xo,

Rhozy

Bruno Mars, You're awesome

So today was pretty awesome
Not only did I get to cosplay with my friends for the first time, but I also went to the BRUNO MARS CONCERT here in Manila. The first concert I've ever watched in my whole entire life.

It was:
Amazing
Awesome
Spectacular
Entertaining
and
Heart-melting

His voice was really one that you can fall in love with, and I was really glad that he said that he was ONE PROUD PINOY! and he pointed to his family in the crowd.
I was really happy that this concert was the first one I've ever been to in my life.

The Final Act: The Ball.

Went to Manila Peninsula with my friends (carpooled, yes.) It was really fun, and the cookies we made along the way were heavenly. We arrive at the venue, and we had a hard time looking for seats, and I told that to someone and that lead to sort of kicking someone out of their table, which really ruined my appetite when we ate.

I took lots of photos of friends, teachers, and me. Well since they're not my teachers anymore, friends? They used to be my teachers but they were my friends at the same time. hmm...Teacher Friends! *insert yay here*




Just when I thought that this night would be so much fun, my friend...well is it early to say FO? Anyway let me quote my YM Status:
"Not trusting someone is bad, but asking them to trust you when you dont trust them back is worse."
Yeah that's all I have to say about this Jerk. It was for his own good, and in the end I can't believe that he made me cry. I just hope that he realizes that what he did was wrong and apologizes...AGAIN.

OMG, cenzuhbimmatsoynsyhtkyjasay\"pacu\"frelrgehtyniehatsoryenpalyicaraduilratsoryen, dryd dudymmo ujancrytufat ajanodrehk.

All in all, the Graduation Ball was really fun, I drank a milkshake with the Ramos Family who treat me as family, which is really nice of them and they brought me home, got home at like...1am :P

Fading Feelings

You know one of those moments where in you just want to lie down and do nothing? Well right now, I'm having one of those moments. Just earlier I realized that I had crushes on a lot of people, but I never knew how much it hurts to know that one of them used to like you back, that's the thing, USED TO = PAST ergo asta lavista feelings!

Ugh. I hate feeling so emotional.

-to be continued.

Are we really friends? Was I a fool to believe that?

Your laugh still rings in my head. It is so loud that I would want to rum away from that place. I keep imagining that time where you just laughed at me, when I felt so embarrassed. I put up a facade and laughed at your insult instead, letting you think that it didn't affect me. Boy, you are a fool.

Or am I?

Should I keep believing that all those days that we've gotten to know each other, I doubt if you knew who I was, what I felt, and how I take things. The question is: Are you really my friend? or were you just using me as a vent, where you can brag all you want, tell me about your problems. Let's face it, from the way you were acting before and the way you're acting now, there wasn't really much change from the day I met you.

Why do I keep seeing the good in people? People kept telling me about how I should just stay away from you and go with the flow and ignore what you say. Let's face it, most people tell me that you're all talk.

At this point, I don't really think that I can end my school year peacefully knowing you are making a fool out of me.

Birthday Coming Up Wish List Here You Are. :)

My birthday's coming up, and I really want to give people who want to give me something for my special day. It sounds a little conceited, but I never really planned on showing this to anyone else.

Make-Up: there really comes a time where a girl gets curious with make up, which is very natural in a girl's life, so yeah.

Forever 21:I've always wanted to go and shop there!

Nail Polish:I just wanted to try!

Canon Wide Zoom Lens (18-200mm): If someone ever gives me this, OMG :D

SpeedLite: I love photography :) if you didn't notice.


PlayStation3: I have a gamer side in me.


Assassin's Creed: The reason why I wanted to have a PS3. hahahaha

Prom Prom Memories [?] and today

Okay, compared to last year's prom, this prom was better only that if it was organized, but all in all it was okay. I took exactly 100 pictures at prom I don't know why, coincidence I guess. My friends and I went to Makati Shangrila for prom at the Rizal Ballroom, it took us 30 minutes to get there which was pretty okay compared to the old route we took.


We got there and it started. We took pictures and ate the food there, and compared to last year the FOOD WAS GOOD! the ice tea just sucked for me, i didn't like it, so I got coke for my second glass.

Sadly, I didn't to dance with most of my guy friends during PROM, funny thing is I got to dance with my male teachers, and Bro Den which I find so cute and hilarious. most of my pictures were full of teachers and me, and my math teacher probably got 5 pictures with me which was kinda awesome. And I was so random, my teachers and I were playing the Mini Grand Piano, it was too cute when I saw the other CL teacher play the piano ♥ and this Junior was too awesome for that Mini Grand Piano, he was good i mean VERY GOOD!

I feel like I'm closer to the teachers than my batch which is kinda funny. cute eh.



My friends and I returned to my house, ate soup, and drank wine. I loved it, one of those moments where in I can drink for a reason. and after uploading pictures, i slept. And that was when I had the dream....Oh Goodness.

I can't believe that I had that dream. It was too real, the fact that it looked too real, it was really scary and awkward at the same time, and hahahaha the person I expected the least shows up and haunts it.
Anyway, that dream was on my mind the whole Sunday, and I ended up drinking red wine again, I almost managed to finish the whole bottle, coz my brother drank the remaining contents of it.

Today, I showed my teachers the pictures of me and them, They decided to let me write a message for them. It will sound like a goodbye but it wont be. I know that I'll definitely go back and give them a hello and a hug.

Writing Tardy Gets Me Guilty

Today was achievement tests week, which for everyone is "we're too lazy to take it" test (sorry)
Today was also "too many tardy students" day.
I dont really mind being blamed for them getting PTCs because I write down their late marks and others, being the Proxy Secretary of the class, but what I really can't stand is the fact where they don't realize it themselves, the fact that they are late is because of them, only them. They come late, make up some lame excuse, and don't realize that they were late, for example, three times!? I mean shouldn't you realize it when the teacher announces that you were late? I mean what the hell...it was your own damn fault, I just write it down on paper. They should know me by now, I can't not do my duties properly. What seriously struck me the most, that made me cry, was when this one classmate of mine was shocked upon learning the fact that he was late three times today, yes today. You know what he did? He talked to his classmate about it. Can he change the Attendance? No, he can't. If he sees the flaw in the attendance record, he should go to me directly, maybe I'd feel bad and talk to the teacher about it so that he'll get excused for his late record.

I can't believe that I actually cried for him. Just because he was pissed. I believe that I didn't deserve it, the tear-shedding i mean.

The last class ended on time, and I always turn off everything in the classroom. While I was erasing the blackboard, I kept thinking about it non-stop, and there, my tears slowly started pouring. I tried hiding it because I was erasing the blackboard, meaning my back was facing the few students that were left in the classroom. When my teacher tapped my shoulder and told me to handle everything and lock the door, I faced him (tried not to.) He noticed and I saw my two of my friends who were came to my classroom saw me teary-eyed that I was trying to hide the tears and both asked what's wrong. I really felt bad for causing another one's distress because of what they did themselves. He said that it was okay and not to worry about them. I really felt bad. My teacher told me to walk with him and he told me stuff like it was their fault and you're not to blame. What he said really made me feel better, and I really appreciated it. Thanks Sir!

Hell week are you over?

Yes! finally the dreaded english and filipino papers are over with all I have to worry about is the computer report and nothing else...well include my grades too!
But alas, there is only one more week before classes end...le sigh, I still have to worry about getting into College, particularly Ateneo De Manila.

But all other school things aside, There's something else really bugging me.
Ever since my friend and I patched things up, we stopped talking to each other. I didn't want that. Maybe my friend was right, he's just busy, but ever since that day no one made a move, nothing, zip, zero. I got to admit I really wanted to talk to him badly. I just wanted everything to be back to normal. I know that I usually IM him first, but there were days that he'd take the initiative to do it first. Who knows? Maybe I wanted him to IM me first because I wanted to know when it's the right time to talk to me again...

The others have been treating me the same way as before, even his friend too! That's because 2 out of how many friends I've got that are close to him know about what happened to Him and I.

Glamour and Stress in One Day

Today, was a pretty okay day. Not that I find it boring. It was really exciting in the middle of the day, let me elaborate:

I slept at 2 am due to some stress and UBE moment with my friend Charles, and woke up at 7:45am. I had my piano lessons that day, and thankfully I managed to finish my Physical Science Project (Photoframe with a geological event) after all that OC-ness about the info part and all, the outcome was nice if i do say so myself.

My Tita and my cousin picked me up for my gown fitting at the House of Laurel in Makati. When I entered the magical fashion house, I was excited that ladies and gentlemen was a fashion house, couture, fashion madness! I loved it! There waiting for me at the changing area were dresses designed by one of the Philippine Fashion Gods (in my opinion). The first dress I tried on was a black sequined gown that was very beautiful the thing is, the color was too common for Prom. They gave me a pair of heeled shoes to try on, btw. After that I tried an orange gown (same design) but it was too overwhelming for me, the emerald-colored dress was divine, there was only one thing, it looked to lasallian for my tita's taste and mine. The amethyst and pink gown (same design) was so pretty, it was playful, and young-looking on me, so we kept that as an option, at that moment where in I left the changing room and showed the dress to my tita, I saw a man wearing jeans and a black polo, it was the designer himself, Rajo Laurel, and he actually talked to me, I was really starstruck when I saw him, so I just smiled back, I wish I had a picture with him-he was really friendly, and tall! Okay back to the story, the "princessy" amethyst dress was so cute, it really felt like I was a princess, I thought about the over-all look will be in none less than 10 seconds its was really beautiful. The last dress, I really do agree with the saying "save the best for last" because of today. It was a blue "jersey" 5 ways gown, It really looked elegant and mature for me. It gave me comfort, style, grace, elegance, and curves!(hahahaha just had to say it!) After deciding that that was the dress that I was destined to be with, we decided to think of accessories. The placed a Bib necklace (also by R.L.) it was really royal like, "I felt like Satine when the Duke placed that diamond necklace on her neck.) It looked a little heavy when people stare at it, so we decided to go simple and place dangling earrings and a brooch on the knot at the side of my waist, I really looked mature in it. We didn't buy the accessories but we bought the dress, and that is more than enough for me.




And the first thing my tita said to me was, You're gonna have to wear 5" heels. I cursed in my head in thought to that, but I didn't mind since I can actually act like a teenager. We went to Rockwell, it has really been while since I've been there, my parents are all about the distances when it comes to going somewhere, and the thrifty type too. We entered the mall in search for the perfect pair of silver shoes for me, but it was an unsuccessful mission. Tita gave us what to order for her in Cibo, my cousin and I kept repeating the food orders in our head and walk straight to the restaurant. We ordered what she told us to order and my cousin and I just ordered a carbonara to share.



The order came, and we both attacked the spinach dip with focaccia bread. I swear it is To Die For, we ate our food and my tita gave me dangling earrings that had crystals that change in color and lent me a brooch, which was so cool. I wish I knew how they make it. Anyway, we left the restaurant and went back home, they dropped me off at my house. My other tita, gave me shoes (4"-4.5") for my prom, I am very thankful for that.

It was a really fun day .The Projects just made it stressful for me. Once again. Groupwork.

Yes its one of those days, Hell week

Hey, It's one of those days again, in where you have nothing else to worry about but school work.
Yes, the dreaded projects, tests, and homework that need to be done in either the same day or week.
I'd say that most of the things to worry about in school are done and it should. All I need is my groups cooperation because without them I'm screwed. This is the whole point of GROUP WORKS (Yes, the "WHAT'S GONNA WORK? TEAMWORK!" thing comes to mind every time I get into the Group Work topic) everyone gets assigned something and they'll do what they're assigned to do, but sometimes it's just unfair and you end up doing everything. FML moment.

Anyway, I think because the school year's almost over and my batch is graduating (Yes, its so close!) We get to remember what we're gonna miss the most: hanging out with friends, and our teachers. Because, face it, in college some professors are friendly and some aren't.

Well I'll tell you the highlight of my week:
The Music Event
-It was really awesome, my favorite performance was the Orchestra's because I love their song choice, they showed their classical and modern views in music. But all in all it was a performance to remember!

The 3rd Honor Certificate (and the Exemplary in Conduct too, but I'm third honor!)
-Guess what? I'm finally a 3rd Honor Student (Yes, Hell Yes!) after all the hard work that I've put through last term, I'm proud to say that I'm proud of my achievement!



Okay the downside:
More things to do
More things to study for
Must try to be stress free
School Year's almost over
:(


I guess I learned that nothing really lasts forever, but you can if you want to. Time is of the essence, one once said. Time is gold, another said as well. that's why time waits for no one.

Just the camera, Snapshot ♥

Today, I woke up as usual 6:15am. Took a bath, dressed up, ate and I, as usual, cram all the things I have to bring for school. Bringing my laptop is pretty heavy, even if it's light.

I got to school before the bell rang, phew, I don't want to get my "perfect attendance" record tainted. Well, like what sir announced, there was a 40 minute period since there are 2 achievement tests. I really couldn't recall anything in the past year, so like the rest of my class most of my answers were "shotgunned," I just hope that it isn't graded.

I'm proud to say that I made it through the day. It was really fun because when were were at the library. One of my girlies, Ishka, made me and my two other besties Tricia and Kata smile and laugh. We took our FIRST GROUP PICTURE FOR THE YEAR!



Girlies, we have seriously got to take more pictures, I mean there's only 3 weeks left before we graduate. The library closed and Ishka, Kata, and I went to Cadlum hall to watch different baking videos which were totally awesome, and we agreed that we should bake these ingredients at my house, during the summer!

Dearies,
I love you guys! You guys should totally sleep over at my house :> and skype with Monique, and finally get that complete GROUP PICTURE!